Missin' You

Tonight, I am confused. Trusting God has become an effort that needs to be recommitted often. I don't know how, but one day I will be fine and the next day will bring its own new challenges to the surface and without even realizing what has happened, I find myself trying to answer all the questions myself and have somehow tried to 'take control.' Really, deep down, I don't want the control. I would just make a HUGE mess out of everything, I know that! But my sin nature always has other ideas. So, here I am, recommited once more. Recommited to the plan God has for me and trying my best to abide in Him and His will for me. Still, I am confused but I think that is okay. Then I am certain He is control and I am not. That brings a smile to my face.

As the thoughts swirled around in my mind tonight, one thought just kept coming back. That thought was that I REALLY love Jesus and cannot wait until the day I am in heaven with Him. I will see Him face to face and worship Him forever! THAT, will be the BEST day of my life!

Here is a song that speaks to my heart often on these contemplative nights:

Missin' You
by Chris Rice
I heard about the day You went away
You said You had to go prepare a place
And even though I’ve never seen Your face
I’m missin’ You
I lie awake tonight and I watch the sky
And I wish it didn’t have to be so high
‘Cause I’m belonging on the other side
And I’m missin’ You

‘Cause somewhere behind those stars
Is Someone who belongs to me
And I know in my deepest heart
There’s a place for You until I find the place You made for me
But still I’m missin’ You

I dream about Your promise to return
And I wake up hangin’ on Your every word
But for now my feet are planted here on earth
So I’m missin’ You
And even while they say that I’m a fool
I know you see me waiting here for You
Oh, and prayin’ that somehow You’ll get here soon
‘Cause I’m missin’ You

‘Cause somewhere behind those stars
Is Someone who belongs to me
And I know in my deepest heart
There’s a place for You until I find the place You made for me
But still I’m missin’ You

How much longer will it be
Till I get to see you
Though I know you’re right here with me
Tell me when can I be there with you

‘Cause somewhere behind those stars
Is Someone who belongs to me
And I know in my deepest heart
There’s a place for You until I find the place You made for me
But still I’m missin’ You

Oh, I’m missin’ You
Lord, I’m missin’ You